Anaín Bjorkquist

living in murky waters

I *see* you and realize that you are a sad, lost and a very unsure woman.

Part of me wants to save you by shining the mirror that was my life towards you so you can see your reflection in me…the one I used to be.

Part of me wants to expose you to the world by revealing all the flaws that you try so very hard to hide by doing work you know you’re not ready for.

But…

I am neither savior nor demon…

I am just another woman…

living in the same murky waters you do.

Living in the same murky waters that I’ve always lived in…

which is exactly why I won’t reach out to you to help save you, knowing you’ve been wanting to push down on my shoulders to lift yourself up.

which is exactly why I won’t expose you, knowing it would be so very easy for me to push down on your shoulders to briefly push myself up.

It is IN these murky waters that I’ve learned…

that at this stage of the game all I can do is share my work to keep myself afloat.

It is IN these murky waters that I look towards…

the lives of the women that made the lifeboat…

by living their work…

by exposing their own flaws…

by looking for other women that would not push nor lift them…

but help them build.

I am looking for peers that are builders.

I am looking for the lifeboat of the elders.

It is IN these murky waters that I’ve learned…

to build while reaching upward!

© Anaín Bjorkquist February 6, 2012 ~ All Rights Reserved.

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