ambition to stand in their shadow

I still remember that girl who dreamed of becoming a Vascular and Thoracic Surgeon. I still remember going to school while I worked two jobs, had a son that was almost four and another one on the way in my womb. I was a woman with a lot of ambition and determination. Somehow while I was busy planning for a life I did not yet have the life I was living changed my course. As choices were made the costs of those choices had to be paid. In those moments I was the one that paid the cost of those choices with my ambition, my education and frankly a lot of my self-worth. I fell into motherhood a role that I had always taken very seriously but a role that had changed and not at all what I had planned for. (more…)